On the topic of learning to speak up for ourselves....from the archives (7/23/10)
Below is a brief article that I had posted in my "Notes" section in my Facebook account this week....
Add to this the uncertainty of "who am I" that comes with that sense of powerlessness that I had no "power" in my own life - and I had the perfect mix for being a "people pleaser", afraid to speak up for or to even consider that I had a right to not like what was or had happened to me because in the past, to do so was not allowed.
I knew I had to start somewhere - but I was so afraid of conflict of any sort that I would begin to shake and panic even at the IDEA of speaking up about what I wanted, needed or to voice an emphatic "NO" to someone who I viewed to be more powerful than I was.
So - I began with finding my voice in places where there was no personal entanglement...asking for this table instead of that table at the restaurant, telling someone "this isn't a good time" instead of taking a phone call when I was doing something else...understanding that I did not need to explain my thoughts, feelings or actions to anyone, that I did not have to constantly be apologizing.
With practice I developed the confidence to be able to start speaking up for myself more often and I felt less dependent on others to offer solutions to the problems that were the focus of my life, that I felt powerless and hopeless to change.
In time I was able to see that I WAS powerful, that I truly did hold the power to affect change in my life and establish boundaries with others - including within the interpersonal relationships that were the most frightening because I was in such fear of being abandoned again.
And - in the end, I did say good bye to some relationships where my newfound assertiveness was not honored...
and I also discovered new friendships and am building relationships based on trust, compassion and true caring that is mutual instead of my self sacrificing that left me as "less than".
In learning to find my voice I was able to add one more life skill that empowered me to conquer the anxiety that held me prisoner and make that shift from feeling so insignificant to truly knowing that I held value
In learning to find my voice I was able to add one more life skill that empowered me to conquer the anxiety that held me prisoner and make that shift from feeling so insignificant to truly knowing that I held value
for no other reason thanI exist.
Here is a link to the story connected to the photo at the top of this post. This article was written for the Washington Post by a young person who had the challenge to discover their own voice...
Over at Heal My PTSD Michele Rosenthal has an immense collection of works related to the healing journey; here's just one on the idea of learning to speak our own truth.
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Q: What steps have you taken that have fueled your journey to finding your own voice, speaking your own "truth"?
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