|Coco Beach Oct 30 2011|
In "survival" mode I was constantly on guard.
My body was tense and often achey.
My mind was racing - analyzing every word others spoke, trying to gage their feelings, predict their next action.
The world was not that "benevolent" place I was told it was. I'd not experienced much kindness or compassion. Asking for "help" always ended badly as I became puppet to yet one more person who believed if I would just "do what I was told" - then for sure my life and I would be "better". Yet - this just perpetrated that feeling of helplessness and powerlessness that pervaded my life and being.
It was in learning to listen to my own body, recognize when I was "triggered" and that I could choose how to respond that I found the power that I'd held all along - but not been taught to access when I sought "help" all those years ago - that finally set me free.
Was it easy? No.
Was it worth the effort, the struggle, the pain that comes with all growth?
|What is a "best life"?|
Its the life I choose and
create for myself
You are enough.
You have what it takes.
It is never
to create our
In awe of your amazing courage,