This was my "aha" moment 2.5 years ago...."If "mental" is thought. And "illness" is sick. That means that I can choose to learn how to recognize the thoughts that are making me feel sick...and change.
This was the turning point for me.
This became my truth.
For fifteen years I had believed that I "felt bad" because I had some hidden, mysterious "disease" or "illness" that was causing the emotional instability, the physical exhaustion and numerous complaints like chronic fatigue, fibromyalgia, severe anxiety to the point of getting a new label - "agoraphobic".
But even though the sun was shining, my kids were doing well, I had no life drama going on outside of me - I still felt like hell.
I sat there in my car because I was so full of anxiety that I couldn't go anywhere near people and tried to think through this situation rationally.
I had a new therapist who had set a clear boundary with me and had said very directly that as much as she wished she could "fix" me....that she couldn't.
It was up to me to make my life what I wanted it to be.
For the first time in my career as a "consumer" of mental health services someone was telling me there was a solution besides more "meds".
That I held the key to the life I wanted.
And this was the moment I stood at the top of that mountain, tears streaming down my face, my body trembling in fear...
And leaned forward into the wind
that something would be there for me to stand on or that I would
Q: What is your truth? Where does your power come from? What is it that you hang your hope on for a better tomorrow?